Saturday, April 9, 2011

A Wish..!

I was standing near a tree with some of my friends from Masters. I don’t know what that place was. The weather was pleasant and I think we had gone there for a trip. Just then, Maddy came out of nowhere. On seeing him, I was ecstatic and yet speechless. I was consumed by an oxymoronic feeling of disbelief and satisfaction. He saw me, but first greeted one of my friends and then came towards me, a sly smile on his face. I struggled to speak. I could finally manage just a stutter, “I thought you were… “

He was quick to reply, as if he knew I was going to ask this. “Haan beta, did you even care to confirm where I was? I had gone for a trip. Nothing happened to me!”

I was filled with gratitude towards Almighty. I couldn’t have been happier. I hugged him. And I was relieved.

And then I woke up.

It’s strange that we sometimes don’t realise how badly we want something, until we see it in a dream. Stranger the fact, that these dreams come at a time when we least expect them to. Life, of late, seemed to be showing all of its colors at the same time –too much work and too many responsibilities, moments of joy and sadness, excitement and anxiety –all together! I was preoccupied with way too many things. I would have expected a dream to have come from such current affairs in my life. But the land of slumber has its own rules.

It has been 11 months, and I had thought that I have come to terms with the void Maddy left behind. But this dream told me otherwise. It made me long for that same feeling of relief I felt when I saw the dream. It told me how indispensable he is. I wish I could hug him again.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Decoding Maddy.Allways

I keep remembering small conversations that I would have with Maddy. Some topics were the regular ones – how studies suck, who’s more broke, which new girl does Maddy like now, when to have our next drinking session and blah blah blah. When sometimes, our discussions would turn into arguments, then in the end, one of us would had to give in (not always though). His favourite line would be “achcha maan liya mere baap” :P. Another topic was when I would mercilessly bug him by finding faults in his grammar. More often than not, he would have to agree with me on these ones.

One day I asked him if he realised that he has an error in his gmail id: “maddy.allways”. I told him he had misspelt “always” with a double ‘L’. I was expecting him to agree with me on this one too, but he said something totally unexpected. He said he never meant to put “always” there and that he had meant “maddy all ways” which implies that he is Maddy in every way. I found it weird, funny, but I had nothing else to argue upon. A long time after that, I would have my doubts whether he really meant to spell it that way, or was it that, when I pointed it out, just a very smart, spontaneous cover up with an intelligent explanation. Whichever it was, it would always make me smile. I am still reminded of this conversation time n again and it still brightens me up.

And I cant agree more. Mahendra Singh Yadav -really a “maddy in all ways”!